Listening to my soul
I’ve always been someone who thrives on structure. Give me a calendar, a to-do list, a plan and I’m in my element. On the surface, it looks like I’m simply being organised, keeping track of commitments, staying on top of a busy life. And in part, that’s true.
But if I’m completely honest, it’s not just about organisation.
The deeper truth is that structure has been my way of creating safety. It’s a form of control. A strategy to manage the undercurrent of anxiety that often runs through me. When the world feels overwhelming, my routines and schedules become anchor points. They give me something to hold onto; a sense of order in the midst of chaos, a reassurance that I won’t be swept away by the tide.
For a long time, I didn’t even notice this. I told myself that being structured was simply a strength and it is in many ways. But what I didn’t see was how often my organisation was actually a mask, covering over the unease I felt inside.
Recently though, something in me has started to shift.
I’ve been experimenting with letting go, just a little. Allowing space for something beyond the neatly laid-out plans. Instead of relying only on structure, I’ve started to listen more deeply to my soul, to those quiet whispers of intuition that so easily get drowned out when I’m busy ticking off lists.
At first, this felt uncomfortable, vulnerable. Without my familiar scaffolding, I wondered if things would still get done or indeed if I’d lose my grip.
But the surprising thing is when I soften my hold and listen inward, life doesn’t fall apart. In fact, it feels like it falls into place.
I’ve noticed serendipity showing up in ways I could never have planned. The right people appear at the right time, conversations unfold that open unexpected doors, opportunities land gently in my lap without me having to chase them. I still achieve the things I hope to achieve, but they arrive with ease, almost as if by magic, instead of through sheer effort and over-planning.
It feels less like I’m wrestling life into shape, and more like I’m dancing with it. I realised that this is what alignment and flow feel like!
Listening to my soul has become an invitation to trust; to trust that I don’t need to hold it all together for life to support me. It doesn’t mean abandoning structure altogether (I’m not there yet!), but it means allowing enough space for flow, for guidance, for grace to move through.
And here’s the beautiful paradox; the more I let go of needing to control, the safer I actually feel. Not the brittle safety that comes from everything being tightly managed, but a softer, deeper safety; the kind that comes from knowing I’m supported by something larger than myself.
I’m beginning to realise that my soul doesn’t want me to live a life of control. It wants me to live a life of connection. A life where I can still be organised, yes, but not at the expense of hearing the quiet truth that rises up when I pause, breathe, and listen inward.
The more I practice this, the more alive I feel. Less driven, more guided. Less about surviving the day, more about meeting it with openness and wonder.
And maybe that’s the real magic; when I stop gripping so tightly, I create space for life to surprise me.
If you’ve ever felt yourself caught between structure and surrender — between holding on tightly and wanting to let go, you’re not alone. This is the very place where deep transformation can begin. I help people reconnect with their inner wisdom and move from control and anxiety into trust, ease, and alignment.
If this speaks to you, I’d love to hold space for you. Get in touch to see how to work with me.